Call it what you want
But I feel like everyone has there breaking point
I thought I made it through mine with ... and came out on the other side a better person
But I guess what I did was build a glass house around myself
And it's literally shattering
You can do and be as good as you will yourself to do and be
But what about when you can no longer numb yourself and the glass you smiled behind isn't there anymore
And the air hurts your lungs and the broken pieces around you cut like a knife every fucking step you take
What does a person do then?
I can't run
I can't hide
But staying where you are is going to have you bleeding out
The damaged parts of my life can't be repaired
The only reasons the kept me alive are no longer mine to have
I feel like everything up until this point was me hanging on by a thread and i swear to god I whole heartedly feeling it breaking apart
Do I just let go and enjoy the view down or let it break so I'm not expecting it so when the ground is approaching fast I don't even have time to have a final thought
Fuck
as I want to throw up the white flag because I'm literally grasping for a way to pull myself out of this right now. I don't have an ounce of of energy to yell or fight or really have any conversation that would require me to participate through any response or rebuttals. And that's not me being a cunt or bitch or anything. It's like everything got pulled out of me through a cavity in my chest. Kinda like the one when doing any autopsy
Has there ever been a moment where you felt the life leave from your body?But you keep on moving around hoping no one sees the difference
There can only ever be one real time a person can die on the inside but still have to live each and every fucking second, feeling completely fucking empty no matter how hard they try or how loud the loneliness gets inside a head that is causing your body to feel actual pain from it all.
It's makes me understand suicidal ideation
And when a person finally finds there way out.. are they met with peace or regret
What caused them to have the balls to do it
What will end up being the reason I take the easy way out